Cleaning

Today I have been cleaning like a mad woman. We have a room in our house that is the dump room. Everything that we don't have a place for or want to put away gets dumped in it. It is horrible, and having my darling little girls constantly dumping drawers and bins out doesn't help. Well, today I cleaned it! I boxed up and labeled all of those "little foxes" (Song of Songs 2:15) and stacked them neatly in the closet. I got rid of TONS of stuff that was hiding in there. On top of cleaning the dump room I have been doing never-ending dishes and scaling Mt. Never-rest (laundry pile). I have been weeding the yard and staying busy, busy, busy. I am so exhausted that I can hardly hold anything in my right hand.

You might have guessed that I am not the best housekeeper on my block (or anywhere), but I sure do try. You might even be thinking that if I hadn't let it get that bad it wouldn't have been such a job and you're right on both things. I did let it get bad and it was very painful to clean it. And I do try to keep things nice, but sometimes they just get out of control and then I kind of short circuit and don't know what to do. But, I love my dh and tomorrow is Father's Day. And knowing him as I do I know that what he would want more than anything else is a tidy house. And because of that love I worked and worked to clean it up and give him the gift of a clean and tidy home (even the DUMP room.

You know I kind of think it is the same in my heart with the Lord. Sometimes I have sins that I don't confess and repent of, and then my heart just gets dirtier and dirtier and then I short circuit and don't know where to start to be clean again. But I love my Lord so I want to be pure. Then I seek Him in His Word and find that He cleanses me and makes things right. But it is so painful and it hurts to admit that I have let things get so bad. But He is so faithful and I love Him so I endure the pain for the beautiful fellowship that follows. Just as I worked hard to clean my home and endured pain for the pleasure and fellowship that will follow tomorrow when my dh enjoys the gift I have given him.