Balancing Life Changes

I am a terrible housekeeper. I am trying hard to improve, but I am very lacking. I also lack the ability to try and change more than one area of my life at a time. I seem to be able to only focus on one thing at a time.

Like right now I am trying to lose weight. And it is a big thing for me and takes every bit I have leftover from homeschooling and caring for my family. I know it sounds really silly, but I have for years used food as my recreation and relaxation. I don't get "days off" so my fun became eating whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. Looking at it, it really seems ridiculous. But this is a big life change for me.

I have many different areas that need improvement in my life, and many things I need to change. I am trying to become a better housekeeper and much more diligent in getting school done. But I seem to short circuit and only one of these areas gets worked on at a time. I mean we get school done, but not at the level I would like. And the children are fed, and the dishes get done eventually, but this is not the level of housekeeping I want to achieve. But if I try to change and focus harder on the house or school than my weight loss falls away and I start wanting to eat whatever I want.

The older I get life seems to be about balance. When I was younger I thought it was juggling. But juggling is stressful and sometimes things fall. But balance is peaceful and calm. And when things are balanced nothing falls, only when things get out of balance. So I need to learn the art of balancing the jobs I have. Each one weighs a certain amount and I need to figure the proper way to carry each job for balance. I am sure that the reason I fail in one area when focusing on another is because I let it get out of balance. I should evenly distribute the weight.

But how to do that is a great mystery to me. I have created chore systems and they are a beautiful thing to behold, but if I don't USE them then they don't really help. I guess the only real way to balance life is to pray and plan. And if it isn't working than to pray some more and tweak your plan.

I will learn to balance my life with the Lord's help. Perhaps that is the entire secret of a balanced life, focusing wholly on the Lord and then He will direct each step that I take. Not focusing on the problems at all, but on the Lord and then just doing. It sounds so simple doesn't it?