Losing weight

Since I have joined the ranks of round women I have tried off and on to lose weight. And I have great resolve, at least until the first piece of chocolate cake comes my way. I lose a few pounds, then I let my favorites back into my tummy, and the losing stops. I get discouraged and wonder why and my sweet husband gently reminds me that I can't eat a dozen fresh baked cookies and expect to lose weight. This has been a puzzle for me, because when I was young and skinny I would eat a dozen cookies if I wanted to with no problem. Yesterday as I was leaving the grocery store I was puzzling over this and it hit me (yes, maybe I am a little slow). When I was skinny I was very picky, if something was served that I didn't like I didn't eat. I skipped a lot of meals, some because of pickiness, and some because of money (if I didn't have money I didn't get lunch at work, I NEVER brought lunch, like I said, sometimes I am s-l-o-w). Now, I am not quite as picky, which comes with age, and having babies and nursing makes you ravenous which makes everything taste pretty good. So, the pickiness doesn't work for me. And as for skipping meals because I can't afford lunch, my children are funny in expecting something to eat in the middle of the day, every single day. So, now I eat regularly. So my two biggest stay thin secrets won't work anymore.

Now that I have discovered this and put to rest my ridiculous hope that I can eat whatever and still lose weight now that I am not pregnant or nursing, I believe that this time my weight loss will be successful. I now KNOW things are different and I need to change as painful as that is. I still kind of wish I could just be fat and happy, but really I am not happy being fat, so that really isn't true either.

So as I cling to the actual truth that I am older with a slower metabolism, and I actually like food now, and being fat really doesn't bring all that much happiness, I have confidence that this time I will lose weight. Now I know that I have just revealed what a silly person I am, but without us silly people, we wouldn't recognize the wisdom in others.

WW Start Weight (7/18/05): 187
Current Weight: 185
WW First Goal: 168

2 lbs lost!
17 lbs to go to reach my first goal!