When Everything Goes Wrong

Do you ever have times when you just want to curl up and cry? Times when it seems things just seem to go wrong and you can't help thinking, "What next?". This is me right now. First we have had several injuries resulting in ER visits over the last months which results in more bills. Then we find out the transmission is really broken and we can't drive our van. Next my blender breaks (not a biggie, but David likes a smoothy each night and now I can't make him one). Now my Palm dies and my computer is only limping along. My husband comes home last night and tells me he lost his wallet (he just called though and told me he found it at work). Finally the pilot goes out on the furnace and simultaneously one of the children accidentally turns it up all the way resulting in a house full of gas in the middle of the night! And now until the gas guy gets here hopefully today, we won't have hot water because my dh shut off the gas to the water heater and the furnace, so I CAN'T TAKE A SHOWER (and believe me I NEED one)!

So right now I am asking the Lord it He thinks I can take much more, and maybe it is time for a break. There is a song that I really like by Out of the Grey called If I Know You. It talks about these times when you are just hanging on, and how God comes and brings you just the right type of encouragement just when you need it. If you get a chance look it up and take a listen, it is a wonderful song. So, that's where I am right now. I am waiting for my "perfect surprise".

But even in the midst of these times I see God's hand caring for us. When Elijah hurt his finger, he could have lost it, but he didn't the Lord protected him. When the van broke in town, we could have been stranded, but the Lord got us home. My Palm broke and my computer is having problems, but the Lord is giving me grace to accept it and even to see this as an oppurtunity to grow in my role as a wife and mother and in my service to Him. And with the furnace if our dog hadn't barked at 1 o'clock this morning so I would let him in, all of my babies could be dead! He has protected us from so much and I am so thankful, but I do feel kind of like I am in a pressure cooker right now.

But:

'If I know You,
You will turn this day, into a perfect surprise,
If I know You, like I think I do,
The worst of times will work out right,

If I know You
You will turn this day into a perfect surprise,
If I know You like I hope I do,
The worst of times will work out right,
Lord I know there's hope in sight,
You will get me through if I know You.